I'm a cynic 'coz it's convenient...
Belief, faith...all of it requires effort.
And that's the last thing I can spare my energies for.... I'm spending enough on being an absolute idiot as it is...
Ugh. There are times when I feel if I had a friend who was like me, I would have slapped her and shaken her till she came to her fricking senses. There I go again. I am, as I keep repeating, completely hopeless....
I need like...a whole new life....
On second thoughts, I don't... Seeing as I'll probably do the same stuff over : What I could do with would be a whole new emotional side. A non-existent one, ie.
Ugh.