Sunday, December 10, 2006

How much longer is this going to take?! I mean, I've been telling myself... Yeah, it'll take a while longer...a month...two, but now? 7 months?! You have got to be kidding me...
Is this how wounds to the soul feel? Gnawing continuously at you, at your very existence? Like this big void that you have no clue what to do with. I mean, you can try and shift the focus for bouts of time...Long sometimes, short at others.... Read a book, watch a movie, talk to your friends, listen to music....in other words, immerse yourself into another guy's take on life and the same ol' shit. I've had enough. I mean, I was happy when it was over! What in the devil's name am I moaning on about?! (Okay, I exaggerate. I'm not moaning, I'm just...ermm...pondering??)
Does anyone know what's going on? Why it is isn't even a question (ermmm....answer, rather) that I want to get into. But what sounds like a good thing to know. If anyone does know, would they kindly let me in on the secret too?