I feel like I have awoken from some kind of trance.....And that in a place where I find I can't give myself even 3 good reasons for being at.....Heck, let alone 3, I can't even think of one decent reason.....When I came to this IIT place, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life....Not like I have any now, but I can at least think of one other place I'd much rather be at, apart from home (d-uh).....Why in the devil's name do I have to stay here then??!! Man, I thought I was complicated, look at the world's insane rules!!! Hell, I can think of at least a hundred different ways I'd love to modify the world in!! Why should I be in a place I dislike quite intensely when I know I'd be a zillion times happier elsewhere??!! I tell you, who ever said society was a boon??!!! X-(

Melody for the soul?? Watever....

There are times when I have an insane urge to listen to a particular kind of music...Like right now...I NEED Floyd....And I can't have it, not at my convenience, coz I am at home....And yes, I forgot(?!?!?) to write any cds before I got home....
This "need" for music is something my parents don't quite get...Don't get me wrong, they are actually far more musically inclined than u can imagine.....But yet, they don't get the concept....Coz for them, music is a hobby...while for me, it is something like a passion.....mebbe more....For any kind of mood that I may be in, there is some kind of music which will get me happy and back on my feet again...That's all I need to heal...time and a LOT of music.....
My dad often tells people this anecdote about me, about this time when I was a newborn baby....My mum was still in the hospital (courtesy me, a Caesarean baby...:D) and my dad and a friend of his had to get me home....And I, needless to say, was bawling my lungs out.....Dad says that the moment he turned the music on in the car, I stopped crying, and I was quiet so long as the music was on!! We-ll and that, in a way, still holds good...:)

I hate crossing roads. More so crowded roads. I hate crowds too.

I love the sight of yellow flowers on shrubs. Such a treat for the eyes. I love yellow and green. In nature, ie. Only in nature.

Right. So I m bored, discontent and not particularly happy. We-ll I ain't unhappy or anything, but I ain't particularly too happy about anything either.....Don't give me all that shit about "people out there who have much lesser than you ".....I'm sorry for them n I'd really like to help them n all that stuff, but give it a rest....None of that is making me happier, so....
I really wonder sometimes.....if it would be nice (ok, not "nice", different is the word) if I went n lived somewhere else for a little while.....I mean....u can't really change yourself if there are people around you who knew you earlier, can you?? I will, someday too, go away just like that. Leave everyone guessing. Just for a while though, for a change. Leave without giving anyone any hints about where I'm off to. Ohhhhh darn....I can't wait!!

I wish my life had a few buttons....Fast Forward, Rewind, Pause.....N yea, most importantly, ERASE......